I just didnt want to forget the reason of which i should never drink alcohol,ever. Jan says i will never be able to drink socially, like everyone else. I take it all too far. When you wake up from a drunken binge at 10:30 AM and taking beer bongs by 11:00 AM, you know you're fucked. When you're calling out of work because you're drunk and want to continue drinking, you know you're fucked. Especially since the reason you are working is to pay your legal bills for the DUI and alcohol citations you got last month from officer Bradford. When you're belligerant by 2:30 in the afternoon you know you're fucked. And by 8:00 PM you're eating an old piece of a beehive because you're friends paid you eight dollars to do so and you're retarded and drunk and wasted and bored. When you're scratching you're toes and falling in the sand infront of everyone, you're fucked. And when you're hiding behind dumpsters from the cops that aren't there and yelling at your sister over the phone telling her you have an alcohol problem and you're ignoring your mothers phone calls. When you're threatening and gathering people to go beat you're ex-boyfriends new girlfriend because she talked some shit you don't even care about. Wen you can't remember falling asleep that night, you're fucked. When you're drunk for fourteen hours and you're eighteen, you're headed no where but down.